October 2017


October 2017


 
kicking fire into the sand - 1st October 2017
the way and the wall - 2nd October 2017
retreating and advancing - 3rd October 2017
new ways of living - 10th October 2017
darkness descends - 11th October 2017
where the bats and moonlight laugh - 12th October 2017
gimme shelter - 14th October 2017
scratching the itch - 16th October 2017
i wonder if i could? - 18th October 2017
life inside a bubble - 22nd October 2017
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19th June 2012

everything you love, you feel or kill

everything you love, you feel or kill
ask every atom in your body and they're sure to tell you - friend, i'm old as time and older still - and you are made of everything you love, you feel, or kill, i will outlive you, and forgive you, and be just a baby still
when i was talking about my ayahuasca experience in ecuador i wrote about how i was blissfully laying under the starry sky. whilst this was happening the shaman was chanting inside his hut and under more 'normal' circumstances (clearly an inappropriate word to use in connection to ayahuasca) i would have been respectful and joined him. but i felt so content and had a really strong desire to listen to my own music, specifically the song atoms by nana grizol. i had my ipod in my pocket, so without a second thought i plugged myself in and felt the music resonate in a way that it never had before. in particular the final verse:

and nothing ever does begin like nothing ever ends
ask every atom in your body and they're sure to tell you
"friend, i'm old as time and older still
and you are made of everything you love, you feel, or kill
i will outlive you, and forgive you, and be just a baby still"


which sounded indescribably profound. after a while i yearned for more comfort, so i retreated back to my bedroom which was about 50 metres away from the hut. i lay under my mosquito net, listening to the rest of my nana grizol collection with a huge smile on my face. i didn't count how many songs i had gone through before my friend appeared at my doorway asking if i was ok as the shaman was calling for me and i had seemingly disappeared. i unsuccessfully tried to explain how comfortable i was but in the end i semi-reluctantly agreed to return to for a cleansing ceremony followed by a second cup of potion and a strikingly different trip. i have lots of different memories from the whole ayahuasca experience, but whenever i listen to nana grizol now i'm taken back to that night under the stars... and i smile.

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